I've had my struggles over the past 20+ years as my wife Fiona's kidneys have gradually grown worse and worse until she ended up on dialysis. Wanting to believe that God heals today when we pray today, I and others have prayed for her many times, but only to see her health grow worse. Amidst all this, in an effort to find peace with God amidst so many disappointments, my theology has gradually shifted toward an emphasis on God's sovereignty regarding the timing of His answers for such prayers. In other words, if I can just see how God has a purpose for such lengthy delays in answering, I can be at peace that all is well, and that my wife is still living in the midst of God's plan for her life, and that her healing will happen when the time is right. After all, she certainly has grown tremendously through her trust in God amidst all the challenges of this illness. Obviously God is using these circumstances for good.
And then today I watched the following video and it bent my brain. It's from Bill Johnson, the pastor of Bethel Church in Redding, California that has seen many miracles of healing. Sometime just after the 5:20 mark, I thought my brain's hard drive was about to crash. And yet, even though I have no idea how the Biblical promise and purpose of suffering fits in with this man's theology, there's something in what he teaches that stirs me to greater passion to pray. I'm processing... processing...
Check it out, and I'd appreciate your comments if you have any thoughts about it.
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